What does photo it mean to you? Aww, this is how Im feeling right now, to me its like part of my inside (heart) is slowly beating like that mildew drips.

I just stepped back a little and instead of reacting to every little thing, I let it go till next time. All my emotions inside as been in whirlwind this past week with so much happening to me. Many emotions not just sad or happy I mean lots: anticipation, hurts, sadness, happy, crying jag, relieved, joy, lonliness, overwhelming, panic attacks, anxiety, wanting and etc etc. I try my best not to react faster than quick mcdraw but sometimes I guess Im gluttoned for couple punishments aye, oh I know this don't make hell lot sense but to me it does lmao. Thats why I choose this place where I can be myself sometimes and not have to feel like I gotta please everyone. Whenever I dew have chance to write 'get real' it be right here on this site. Yah would love to hear a few feedbacks but not in hurry for when it comes it comes aye lol.

I been avoiding a couple sites well for one I am very behind and I really love them because they are about music, music my most most passion of all times, gee that sounds a bit pathetic ya think? lol well for one music cannot hurt me in any which way. I feel safe with my music. The other of course is blogs bcos I love to write and share but its really mostly for public and really dont feel intimacy like here where its just me and you whoever is reading this. I feel bit comfort here like I can shed my tight skin and weep my heart out if I want too w/o anything tryin to console or give me their (well meaning) wisdom and wise words for me to calm my seas down aye lol. I want to feel free in expression myself whether its adultwise or childest lol is that pretty raunchy of me??? Guess so. I sighs.

Anyway enough for this post, right now I got so much things to dew and will come back real soon.



Day after day, I'm more confusedYet I look for the light through the pourin' rainYou know that's a game that I hate to looseAnd I'm feelin' the strainAin't it a shameOh, give me the beat boys and free my soulI wanna get lost in your rock n rollAnd drift awayOh, give me the beat boys and free my soulI wanna get lost in your rock n rollAnd drift awayBeginnin' to think that I'm wastin' timeI don't understand the things I doThe world outside looks so unkindNow I'm countin' on youTo carry me throughOh, give me the beat boys and free my soulI wanna get lost in your rock n rollAnd drift awayYea, give me the beat boys and free my soulI wanna get lost in your rock n rollAnd drift awayAnd when my mind is freeYou know a melody can move meAnd when I'm feelin' blueThe guitar's comin' throughTo soothe meThanks for the joy that you've given meI want you to know I believe in your songAnd rhythm and rhyme and harmonyYou help me alongMakin' me strongOh, give me the beat boys and free my soulI wanna get lost in your rock n rollAnd drift awayGive me the beat boys and free my soulI wanna get lost in your rock n rollAnd drift awayOh-ho, ah-noGive me the beat boys and free my soulI wanna get lost in your rock n rollAnd drift awayHey, hey, hey, yeahGive me the beat boys and free my soulI wanna get lost in your rock n rollAnd drift awayNa, Na, now won't yaWon't ya take meOh-ha, take me

Mirror mirror on the wall, please grab me before I fall!
and I pinky promise I won't bang my head against the WALL {aye lmao;)}