Friday, April 10, 2009

Old Loves Haunting Places



Yesterday, my sister picked up me since she offered to drive down to town too for we both needed food and supplies. I sometimes like being spoiled aye you know and just relax a bit enjoying the scenery while crusing to oldies 100.9 fm cherry loud. You know I always am worker in the family and have contribute lots or was mostly caretaker one, always wants to help out or doing something for the family. So I now feel comfortable when someone wants to spoil me or dew something for me.

My sister was driving a nice old truck dayum im so jealous lol its beaut 1970 250 F all primed. Her mate is fixing it up for family use to truck around, oooo hope he let me borrow soon for love to make tracks up mountains just scoping out good fishing spots uhhuh oooo can hardly wait. Someday I want to get me old truck too for they are the best or old cars, dangs I had cool heavy ss chevy malibu too cruise around on. Hm, reminds me to add another number of things list..yup nice TRUCK..ooo I just see it now me gettin way further up west mountains and have my gear up, camping tent nah I will sleep in truck and fishing poles both fly and reel rod. And some nice old coffee pot over small fire stove depends lol. And ooo nice creek to so skinny dipping in dangs and then late at night sleep in my truck and looking up at stars with my ipod listening too my love songs yup. whewwwww getting warm here aye.


So, I love just listening to music maybe singing too and look at scenery for I am always looking out for Eagle flying high or see their bird nests high up old trees. I was told that when you see Eagle it means good luck is around corner, smiles. Also Im birdwatcher too, I see hawks high up on pole line scoping out for field mouses or anything they can get they claws in and if hungry enough they will take newborns like kitties is what I heard but gez they could be pulling my leg lmao. Now, only thing I dredd seeing is Owl, is a sign that someone close to ya might be on their way to another world/life in other words 'death'. Well enough of that.


Now come down to my subject of past love memories.


There was this song came on radio and whoa its by Todd Rundgren I think and "Hello It's Me" at the sound of keyboard, we passed this 'old pond' a few flashbacks running through my mind. Pond is huge with trees, baseball field, few old little stoves for roasting hot dogs and what not. Place for gathering and socialize. And also there is another road its narrow by the pond that is make out spot lol. Area behind pond is big enough for bonfires and crowd to meet up there like after hours during summer time, ya know how it is aye young and dumb with full of cum chaaaa oops. So hell ya Im norms and had my own crowd or two. There be different times spent at that pond back behind too aye. Sometimes might be me and three chicas crusing and see other cruisers with guys. so there be several cars. we all jam out, checking each other out who who what blah blah lol just having fun. Sometimes there be lots skins (our slang term for Indians) and we meet up there and the guys would sing what you call 49'ing songs and we dance so we call it lets go '49' and yup fun fun time. Necking time, hickies galore aye, and chapsticks too.


Then there was another time, maybe you meet someone at school and just want to hang out so we go there to pond n park our cars. I be so shy, but for me I take my time, and if guys can't handle that I say 'take a hike' that fast im da boss seee so get with the program or scram. aye lol well I dew believe in taking it slow and not just boning right there eh. And you play with fingers and wow i love that. To me fingertips are very good sensor and gives me goose bumps if guy knows how to dew that wink wink not gonna detail it just saying fingers and toes is very tinglings for me uh huh. Met him there couple times but I lost interest...


Year or two passed and working time I was on way to work and got a flat by the Pond so parked on side. As soon as I got off my car, guy in nice truck stop opposite me and offered to change so oki. Soon we was talking up storm, after he got down i drove my car in near pond and he parked beside me. We both got off and he offered me cup of coffee with his stanley thermos bottle. We talked a few minutes n as he walked me to my car he kissed me n I was surprised he did that lol. He well was married bcos I seen his gold band but didn't say nothing. I also noticed he got guitar in his truck and my heart was beating nerves ya know, made me excited some. Still the ring. Before I knew it he asked if we can meet there after our work and i said yesh and got in car and drove on to work. ooo feelin bit flutters just thinking about what might that day. So, ooo for the first time I felt like baddie and sinful cos I was doing something which I know shouldnt. Made me very excited hot and was very anxious. My dam monkey kept knawing in my ear no no you cant get in deep but there was something about him, his tallness, his fine smooth voice got that long drawl twang sound ya know? Yup he was cowboy and rancher. So finally I made up my mind when I meet him to tell him, cannot be habit and all. Well was young and just starting out my new job, long day drives round trip and ya hell ya Im very romanticized woman so who isnt aye lol.


Met him and he was already waiting, i got off my hands was all sweaty and my pitts all wet ewww lol still i walk slowly and got on his truck. dangs very manly truck too lol. We bullchitt chat for while then guess he couldnt stand it and he touched my knee ooo i just about melt, felt the electric sparks and took all my dam will i had NOT to open my legs for him ya know? dayummm. Still I touched his face, liked his rugged and long hair mmmm dams, we gazed each others eyes and kissed softly. My heart was pounding but more my lovebud was throbbin for him aye. Then I pushed him away said I cannot let u dew me oki? ya married n this is not time for us in this lifetime. I will not steal anyone's man ever. This is one time stolen kiss and touch moment but thats it. I got off his truck not waiting for his response and got in my car, turn on radio and backed out. It to me was better less things said draw it out to set ourselves up. So, only seen his truck pass few times but never really looked for it, life went on.


Have a few more to write later, this is just tibits of what is to cum oops come. Yup, oooo well shoot I had lots beaus and just because I did doesnt meant I jumped in every time aye. And hey I have lots friends guy friends and I keep it that way because my way of deep lasting friendship is not jump each others bones, for then we can't be friends no more, it won't be same ya know? maybe Im wrong dunno but I dew follow in my heart and hell ya I make a mistake or two for making fast lay aye. I dew my best to make right decisions but then there are times too i may not like it and have to experience it to see whether its a go or bust. Wow that song and pond sure bought me mixed memories but all in all its precious memories. I have more to share more depthness I hope to dare myself more here. Nite grandpa, nite mary ellen nite jimbob aye lol...yup I watch those tv lands or hallmark channel heehaw. xox





Thursday, April 9, 2009

Best Eagles Echoes


Earlier I was looking out my window facing East and even though it was bit cloudy and windy the full orange moon was beautiful sight to gaze at. I was thinking of wolves howling to the wind spirits calling for their mates. Or thinking how the full moon brings out something in me with shivers and tremblings. I started to sing song by Eagles "One Of These Nights" with big smile.



Of all the groups/artists/songs of Eagles is my most favorites of all time. They songs makes me feel like I am floating along breeze or daydreaming depends on which selections. I like all most songs by them but if I have to name top five songs of my choice it would be and not particular order: Witchy Woman, One Of These Nights, Hotel California, Take It Easy and Can't Tell You Why. Aw wow I had crush on Timmy S. with his long long hair and loved Glenn Frey's 'You Belong To The City' or Don Henley's All She Wants to do is Dance. Oki enough on Eagles.
The day went oki for me but only thing was I was so pressed for time lol sometimes makes me bit nervous because I like to stick to schedule. I tend to try to dew multiple task but when it comes to my work I take my time because cannot afford costly error. I help prepare tax returns with people who cannot afford full service of um block sshh dont want to say lol. Sometimes I let them pay me with what they can give instead of monetary. Well its late now and I want to keep this on daily basis even if its just a short post. Want to share video song with you...




One of these nights
One of these crazy old nights
We're gonna find out
Pretty mama
What turns on your lights
The full moon is calling
The fever is high
And the wicked wind whispers
And moans

You got your demons
You got desires
Well, I got a few of my own

Oo, someone to be kind to in
Between the dark and the light
Oo, coming right behind you
Swear I'm gonna find you
One of these nights

One of these dreams
One of these lost and lonely dreams
We're gonna find one
One that really screams

I've been searching for the daughter
Of the devil himself
I've been searching for an angel in white
I've been waiting for a woman who's a little
Of both
And I can feel her but she's nowhere
In sight

Oo, loneliness will blind you
In between the wrong and the right
Oo, coming right behind you
Swear I'm gonna find you
One of these nights

One of these nights
In between the dark and the light
Coming right behind you
Swear I'm gonna find you
Get 'ya baby one of these nights
One of these nights
One of these nights
I can feel it
I can feel it
One of these nights
Coming right behind you
Swear I'm gonna find you now
One of these nights

Tuesday, April 7, 2009




What does photo it mean to you? Aww, this is how Im feeling right now, to me its like part of my inside (heart) is slowly beating like that mildew drips.

I just stepped back a little and instead of reacting to every little thing, I let it go till next time. All my emotions inside as been in whirlwind this past week with so much happening to me. Many emotions not just sad or happy I mean lots: anticipation, hurts, sadness, happy, crying jag, relieved, joy, lonliness, overwhelming, panic attacks, anxiety, wanting and etc etc. I try my best not to react faster than quick mcdraw but sometimes I guess Im gluttoned for couple punishments aye, oh I know this don't make hell lot sense but to me it does lmao. Thats why I choose this place where I can be myself sometimes and not have to feel like I gotta please everyone. Whenever I dew have chance to write 'get real' it be right here on this site. Yah would love to hear a few feedbacks but not in hurry for when it comes it comes aye lol.

I been avoiding a couple sites well for one I am very behind and I really love them because they are about music, music my most most passion of all times, gee that sounds a bit pathetic ya think? lol well for one music cannot hurt me in any which way. I feel safe with my music. The other of course is blogs bcos I love to write and share but its really mostly for public and really dont feel intimacy like here where its just me and you whoever is reading this. I feel bit comfort here like I can shed my tight skin and weep my heart out if I want too w/o anything tryin to console or give me their (well meaning) wisdom and wise words for me to calm my seas down aye lol. I want to feel free in expression myself whether its adultwise or childest lol is that pretty raunchy of me??? Guess so. I sighs.

Anyway enough for this post, right now I got so much things to dew and will come back real soon.



Day after day, I'm more confusedYet I look for the light through the pourin' rainYou know that's a game that I hate to looseAnd I'm feelin' the strainAin't it a shameOh, give me the beat boys and free my soulI wanna get lost in your rock n rollAnd drift awayOh, give me the beat boys and free my soulI wanna get lost in your rock n rollAnd drift awayBeginnin' to think that I'm wastin' timeI don't understand the things I doThe world outside looks so unkindNow I'm countin' on youTo carry me throughOh, give me the beat boys and free my soulI wanna get lost in your rock n rollAnd drift awayYea, give me the beat boys and free my soulI wanna get lost in your rock n rollAnd drift awayAnd when my mind is freeYou know a melody can move meAnd when I'm feelin' blueThe guitar's comin' throughTo soothe meThanks for the joy that you've given meI want you to know I believe in your songAnd rhythm and rhyme and harmonyYou help me alongMakin' me strongOh, give me the beat boys and free my soulI wanna get lost in your rock n rollAnd drift awayGive me the beat boys and free my soulI wanna get lost in your rock n rollAnd drift awayOh-ho, ah-noGive me the beat boys and free my soulI wanna get lost in your rock n rollAnd drift awayHey, hey, hey, yeahGive me the beat boys and free my soulI wanna get lost in your rock n rollAnd drift awayNa, Na, now won't yaWon't ya take meOh-ha, take me

Mirror mirror on the wall, please grab me before I fall!
and I pinky promise I won't bang my head against the WALL {aye lmao;)}

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

My First Post


For some reason I got the tinglys and zings going on here just because this is my first blog on this site and different new experiences. I like this feeling because I do not know what to expect or my expectations is and along the way after going back and review my writings it might show me where I am at. So excited and so virteous feeling aye and I smiles.

I love to write and sometimes I dare myself on impulsive mood to write what Im in exact moment while in my crazy colourful mind. I am so overanalyzer and like to scrutinize around the world. I know some of you may understand what I said and maybe not but this is me, the best I can explain what the upcoming blogs will be all about.

So just briefly what was going thru past few days is getting up my nerve to set up my settings here and figure out how to dew this or that. I dew catch on quite quick for I have several sites with various themes too so can hardly wait till later to make adjustments and beautify my page, hmm I know I might be uppity or like to showcase but hell who doesn't aye lol.

Well I tell you I am just like lil girl in looking in dollshop window and wonder how many dolls I can get aye lol. So I am still learning the ins and outs of Blogger and ready to roll with my ink that is lol. ~Mia